My life just seems to suck the life right out of me, especially lately. Imagine this: your car is not running, you are in a semi new town where you don't really know anyone except the older next door neighbor and the kids your kids play with. Your husband works 10-12 hours a day, sometimes 6 days a week, and when he has off, he makes plans to do things with his friends instead of you. Would you go nucking futs or what?? I seriously feel like a caged animal. The weather has even been too chilly for me to go for a walk just to get out of the house. My husband does not understand at ALL how I feel and has not even made an attempt to get my car fixed. I mean, really. I'm going to lose my mind sooner or later if something doesn't change. This is killing me.. my only link to the outside world is the internet and my phone. God my life is so fucking pathetic right now. It's embarrassing! what the crap!?!? I already suffer from depression and what do you think THIS current situation is doing to my depression?? I'm trying to fend it off and keep myself busy so that I don't have time to think about things but sometimes everything just gets to me and knocks me down for a little but..eventually I pick up the pieces and get back into the cage that is my life right now.
Counting down the days until summer vacay and then it's going to be even worse. What do I have to look forward to? I can't think of anything at this moment apart from things that have to do with my kids... like all that growing up crap. At least I have my blogs to vent to.
Anyway, I've been keeping myself busy with making things for my mom and my new crafting business. It's something to occupy my time and I like being creative. I just turn on the iPod, kind of zone out and create!! We tried some new things this weekend like making some fancy candies and some really cool magnets that I love making. I can't wait to show them to everyone! I can't wait until we actually go out and start working at some craft shows and flea markets.. at least I will get out of the house and get to talk to adults! hahaha
OH! I had a little bit of excitement because I won a couple of blog giveaways. I won a butterfly garden (so excited!) that I got yesterday, then today I got a package with a bunch of Avon make up in it that I won! Yayyy, at least I'm finding lots of free stuff while I'm stuck here! I want wait to watch the larvae turn into painted ladies!!
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