I've been in a funk the past few days. I don't know what the deal is. I'm just in a blah kind of mood. Not motivated to do anything, not even things I normally enjoy. Kinda down and out feeling... and a little lost. I don't know if it's spring fever or what the deal is. I just know that I'm tired of being stuck in this house all the time. My car is still not fixed and my husband has been working on the weekends, so I'm stuck allll the fuckin' time! I need to get out of this mood though, I don't like it and I'm accomplishing nothing!
Hubs is starting third shift tomorrow night. I'm kinda worried about how he is going to do. First of all, my husband is one of those people that when he is tired, he can not make himself stay asleep. I, on the other hand, can be dog tired but can make myself stay awake if I HAVE to. He worked third shift once.. this was like 5 years ago when we were separated. He said the job was really boring, he just did the same thing over and over and over... he went to the bathroom and fell asleep on the shitter!! (I still call him out on that one!) and the boss had to come in and pound on the door to wake him up! This place had a policy that you couldn't miss any work at all for any reason in your first 30 days.. his boss sent him home and he was fired. ..... The past few months, he's been having some insomnia problems. He falls asleep but then is up after a few hours and can't get back to sleep, which MAY be good for third shift... and his job is way different where he says he doesn't have time to get bored. .. Supposedly, his current supervisor is going to try to get him back on first shift but who knows if he will be able to pull the strings. It's going to be really weird having him gone at night time.. even though it won't make a huge difference to me since he doesn't even sleep in bed with me any more and he hasn't for months. Plus, he will be home during the day. Ehhhh.. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I like my alone time while the kids are at school. I know he will be sleeping for part of it but I'm still not sure how it's going to go. Third shift has its pros and cons. It will be easier for me to get a job this way with him home during the day.. but I don't know how he's going to sleep in the summer time when the kids are not in school!?!?
Yeah, so, that's been about all of the excitement I have had this week. My week has been pretty boring. Some friends and I are trying to plan a girls' night out soon and I am sooo looking forward to that. I need to go out and have some FUN. My life is not much fun this days.