My New Year's Eve was pretty boring. Stayed at home with the kids. Hubs fell asleep at like... 10:00 on the couch, my youngest son got sent to bed early for disorderly conduct, so it was just my son, daughter and I staying up til midnight. This is the first year the kids have stayed up to watch the ball drop on TV. Usually they go to bed before it happens. We had fun though, watched a movie and then the ball drop. I always get kind of depressed on New Year's Eve. I haven't actually gone anywhere on New Year's Eve since like... wow, 10 years ago? We never do shit for New Year's Eve. I wanna go out and party on New Year's Eve... not necessarily just to get drunk and party (though that is part of the fun), but just to have fun with adults and have that midnight kiss! I always feel like everyone else is out celebrating and I'm stuck at home like always. I haven't gone out without my kids since the concert I went to back in freakin September! Midnight comes and goes, I hear the fireworks going off in the distance, while I'm just here in my PJs.
I'm really starting to get discouraged about this whole job thing. The place I had my last interview never called me. I had a voicemail from one place I applied to, I called them back twice, both times got voicemail and left messages, but she never called me back. It just doesn't seem fair that some people find jobs right away and others don't. A good friend of mine just finished school last month, and guess what? She got a job the other day. It was a job that was too far away for me anyway, so I would not have applied, and I want to feel happy for her. I am happy for her because she's a cool chick and all, but damn it all to Hell, I'm starting to feel the big J bug. JEALOUSY. I mean, the Hell my family has been through and how badly we need money right now just to get caught up on things, we probably need a job more than these other people that are finding jobs right away. Sometimes it seems that being a good and nice person just doesnt fucking matter and gets you nowhere any way.
Anyhooters, my kids went back to school this week. YAY, a little bit of peace and quiet.. until 2:45 when they walk in the door, ha! Oh, that's another thing. It really sucks having 3 kids so close in age, all in the same school because they are all 3 selling the same crap or raising money for the same stuff at the same time. Right now, their school is raising money for the American Heart Association. A great cause, I do agree, but god damn it, we are already hurting for money, now we gotta figure out how much to give to 3 different kids, even though we don't have the money! We don't have much family either, and everyone wants it to be fair and even, so they all have to give a smaller amount to each one. Guess I better get used to it though, they are always going to be in the same grades, well, 2 of them will be. It's really bad at picture time, paying for THREE kids school pics at once. Kids are expensive, I need to return mine for a refund!!
WEEKLY DOSE
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