(Sorry, had to make it huge so that you could read the words) I actually got very inspired by the advice my great friends gave me. I'm going to start working on ME and my happiness, instead of agonizing over someone who does nothing to make me happy. I know I am still stuck here for awhile, but that's going to give me time to seriously begin working on myself. I've become a lot stronger over the past 5 years or so. With our two separations, I really learned a lot about myself. I learned how strong of a woman I really am, and this is something that I have to keep reminding myself. I deserve to be happy and I'm going to make sure that I am. I have to become happy with myself before anything else. My plan so far is: To become healthier. By healthier, I mean exercising more, working on my food addiction, eating more vegetables and watching my portions of the bad stuff. Inspiring myself to do anything I want! Making ME happy for ME. ... I'm tired of being upset or depressed because of someone who promised to love me forever. I can't let him bring me down any more. Yesterday, I was in a pretty good mood until he got home, then it alll went down hill from there. He brought me down almost immediately, and it pissed me off! Why do I give him that power to bring me down like that? It's to the point now where I don't even wanna be nice to him or be around him at all. I'm happier when he is gone.
So yeah, that's where I'm at in life right now. I thought about resurrecting my old blog Finding The New Me. I haven't written in it since 2010. As you can see, it would need some fixing up before I resurrected it... but I"m still thinking on it. Do I really have time for a 4th blog? gah!
I have another job interview on Monday. I haven't even told anyone about it. I'm tired of getting excited about a job, just to never hear back about it. It's got me freaking out like what the Hell is wrong with me? Is it because I'm fat? Did I not dress good enough? Was I not polite enough? UGH! I
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