What Happened?

Wow, where did I disappear to? I haven't posted in a few weeks now, does anyone even care? hmmmm..... Well, my grandmother passed away on the 17th. She went down hill really quickly and it was to the point where she just sat in her chair and cried because she was in so much pain and her life was so out of control. It was difficult, but we all knew she was ready. She was 97 years old and lived a long life. I wrote a post about her in my other blog right here Growing Old back in 2009 and wanted to share it again here. I gave a speech at her funeral and that was one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do. I had a hard time getting through it; I had to keep choking back tears. She lived a long 97 years. I can't wish her back because she wouldn't want to come back to the miserable existence that she was living, however I will always cherish the memories I've had with her.

I was also busy with school and I have had this week off, which was very much needed, but I've spent it cleaning and going through all of my grandma's old things. I kept a lot of her stuff, but it's proving difficult to find room for everything. I'm a pack rat and don't want to get rid of anything!

My husband is still off of work. He has been going to physical therapy but it's not helping and they think it is something more serious. We hadn't heard shit from workers comp. until we went to a lawyer on Monday. Today is Thursday and we got papers from worker's comp. that quickly after getting a lawyer! Funny how that works!! We are hoping that this lawyer will be able to help us get a decent settlement. My husband can't work at all right now, in fact, they told him that lifting too much could end up causing his scapula to break and he would have to go on disability.  We have been almost a month with no income apart from the bit I'm making from writing. It hasn't been fun but hopefully we will get something from worker's comp. soon. The kids' birthdays are next week. We are not going to be able to afford to get them anything. I feel so bad, but what can we do?? Just hoping they can understand, and we can make up for it at xmas or something.

The past few weeks, it seems to have just been one thing after the other, after the other. Sunday, my husband took me out to breakfast. Started out good. He was throwing his straw wrapper at me and I went to swat it away when I hit the side of my glasses, and they flew on the floor. Right as I went to grab them from the floor, some old guy walked right on top of them! Nooooooooooo!!!!!! He looked down, said, "I did a job on those didn't I?" and kept on walking. Didn't apologize or anything. I mean, I know they shouldn't have been on the floor, but at least act like you give a flying fuck!! I am blind as a bat without my glasses, so I started bawling right there in the middle of Bob Evans. I was trying to hide it because I hate letting people see me cry. The woman at the table behind us saw what happened and when they got up to leave she came over and asked if I was ok and said she saw the whole thing. Then, some other waitresses came over, then the managers came over. I'm trying not to cry but damn it, I can't see! I can't do anything without my glasses!! One of them told me to check into a warranty on them, or go to walmart and just get the frames because the lenses were fine. Luckily, I kept my old pair of glasses and I do have contacts that I wear on special occasions (because the rest of the time, I just don't feel like fuckin with 'em). .. So we finished our breakfast, with my husband telling me over and over, "it will be ok!". The waitress asked if we were finished, then said that the manager took care of the bill because of what happened. I was so touched! They didn't need to do that, it wasn't THEIR fault! It's nice to know that there are a few caring people out there left in the world! Oh, and Monday I called my eye doctor and my insurance covers replacement frames. Unfortunately, the ones I had were on backorder and it would be 4 - 6 weeks before they came in. I had these awesome purple frames, but had to go with dark brown. *sigh* They don't look tooo bad but I miss my grape glasses!!!

I hope my luck turns around soon. I need some reasons to smile. Maybe I just need another drink?

PHOTO OF THE DAY

This photo is of my grandmother when she was 18. She was beautiful, wasn't she??? She had such a big influence on my life and I hope that I have learned some of her strength and perseverance a long the way.

My First Drunken Post

Yes, I'm having a little too drink tonight and feeling mighty fine. I don't think I"ve ever posted drunk so this should be interesting to read in the morning! Seems like forever since I've been able to post on here; how I've missed it so!!

My husband got hurt at work last week. Like, bad, well, not reeeaaalll bad to where he had to like be hospitalized or anything but he's all fuckered up. His doctor wont let him go back to work until he gets x-rays and an ultrasound done and physical therapy. They are still waiting on worker's comp to ok the tests and therapy. So, basically, he's just sitting here. He can't work, which means next week there will be no paycheck, or the week after that. What the Holy fuck balls are we going to do with no pay check? We just have to wait around for workers comp to pay him for the time lost which could take weeks, or months!! How r we gonna pay our bills? OMFG I'm freakin out. I don't make enough money to pay all of the bills. Fawk! ... So, despite the whole not working thing, hubby is up late at night givin me shit for bein on the computer all day long. Well, wtf, I work online and I have homework that has to be done on the computer... not to mention the blogs and everything else. Yeah, I'm like glued to the computer... no really. I get up to eat and poop.

... Went to my high school class reunion last weekend. It was... FUN! I was like really shocked. I got lots of hugs from people that I haven't seen in 23405817245 years. I had a blast with my little group of friends. One girl lived down the street from me growing up and we have known each other since we were 4 years old. The other friends I have known since like 4th or 5th grade. Most of the people looked older,some better, some worse. Some stupidly annoyingly drunk. Some that dropped out of school in 7th grade but still decided to show up to the reunion and ask everyone, "do you remember me??". Some grew up, others didn't. I did lots of shots and enjoyed it regardless of the dumb ones.

My new class blows monkey balls. The teacher is nice and does good lectures but she is anal about everything (heh, I said, "anal"). Everything has to look pretty and perfect exactly to her specifications. Like, it's more important about how things look than how knowledgeable the student is about the subject... and it has a hella lot of work for being just a gen. ed. class. I will be glad when this class is over. I'm getting closer and closer to the fun medical classes. I can't WAIT for Phlebotomy! mmmwahahahahahahahahahahaaaaa

PHOTO OF THE WEEK

This is a completely candid pic from the class reunion, of my good friend Nonni getting licked by TJ who kept calling her "Naomi".