My Eyes, They Burn!

Because I'm so damned tired! Ugh, I should go to bed, but instead, I'm typing this at 10:56 at night. Started my Sociology class tonight. The subject isn't too difficult, but the teacher is turning it into a lot of stupid un-needed work. I'm already annoyed, but it doesn't take much to annoy me.

Kids are all in school now and let me say, I am loving the 6 hours of peace and quiet every day! Even though I'm still working while they are gone, just having the peace and quiet is so lovely. The kids love school so far, and the twins think it's great that they get to ride the big bus now! Bad thing is, now I have to go stand with the mega-bitch neighbor that yelled at us and called us all kinds of names not long ago. I think that woman is just a bitch 24-7. She stands there with a pissed off look on her face, shows her kids no affection at all, doesn't even say goodbye to her 5 year old. Kinda sad, really. Oh well.

So, an oollldddd friend of mine, I'm talking like, someone I was friends with when I was 4 years old talked me into doing something. .. Going to my class reunion! I wasn't going to go because, well, most of the people I went to school with I wanted to bitch slap on a daily basis. This year, the reunion is at a bar. This old friend of mine asked me to go and hang out with her. We used to live close to one another when we were kids, then in like 5th grade we got into an argument and never spoke to one another again until after high school! haha. Since I moved back to my hometown last year we have been chit chatting online, but have never taken the time to hang out together. Since the reunion is at a bar, we decided that we could just go and have some drinks and hang out with our own little group and not worry about everyone else there that we really don't want to talk to. I'm actually excited to get re-acquainted with some of my old friends! It is this Saturday night. I'm nervous and excited, so be thinking of me and wish me luck! I plan on taking lots of pics, ofcourse! Alcohol.. yes, alcohol makes me lose my shyness, too. When I'm drunk I will talk to anyone about anything, so yeah, this could prove to be quite interesting.... Will be interesting to see who has grown up and who is still a flaming fucktard stick. I went to my 5 year reunion and everyone still had their same little cliques. I hate cliques. They can all bite me.

VIDEO OF THE WEEK


This is me playing tug of war with my vicious puppy. He sounds like a possessed bear, but he's a big baby!!

Sunday Nights Always Suck!

Why do they always suck? because it means that the next morning is Monday!! God, how I hate Monday, especially now that school is back in. Not bad so far though. My son loves first grade and swears that first grade is sooo much cooler than kindergarten! He actually rushes out of bed in the mornings to go to school! Hmm, we will just see how long this excitement lasts! My twins start Kindergarten on Tuesday. You can look for me doing cartwheels in the front yard shouting for joy that I may have 5 1/2 hours of peace and quiet each day! Yippeeeeee!!!!!! So far, all of their teachers seem super nice so I think this will be a good year for all of them, and I'm hoping it will do my daughter some good to be in the class by herself, without her brother there to do everything for her. She always whines that she can't do things, and usually her twin brother comes running over to do it for her. Most of the time I can stop him before he helps her out and make her do it on her own, and magically she finds out that she really CAN do it! She just has to try!!

I've been thinking about this whole maturity thing lately. What does maturing REALLY mean? Turning 18 does not automatically make you mature, no matter how many 18 year olds try to argue that fact. I know I thought I was grown when I was 18. And btw, I absolutely hate that fucking saying, "I'm a grown ass woman". If you say that sentence, I may have to smack you with my maturity stick! (and I have one, oh yes I do). When does maturity happen? I mean, like just one day, ya just wake up and feel differently? Is it a process that happens slowly without us noticing it right away? Some days I just feel old and boring, especially when I go to school with a bunch of 18 and 19 year old kids. I get annoyed at their annoying little giggling and "oh my gawdzz", but yet, when I think about it, I acted that way when I was their age. I will admit it. I just see the world differently than I did when I was 18, Hell, even when I was 25. My priorities are different. I see things from a different perspective. Even when watching a movie or a tv show, I always used to see things from the kid's point of view, but now I see things from the parent's point of view. I can be a sarcastic, snarky bitch, but I know when it is inappropriate or disrespectful. I know when to let things just roll off of the back of my neck and not get so pissed off about them. I know not to freak out about the small things because we always get through whatever comes our way, some how. I do feel old sometimes when I think about how much I used to laugh and how carefree I used to be. Some times I miss those days. When did it hit you that, "Damn, I finally grew up"? Not physically, but mentally? Part of me refuses to grow up completely, though. Like, I refuse to chop off my hair into a super short boy hair cut. I refuse to take my nose ring and tongue ring out. I refuse to stop cussing like a fuckin' sailor. I refuse to stop laughing when someone farts. I refuse to start dressing like an old lady. I refuse to do a lot of things just because I'm in my thirties (and I'm still unable to actually SAY the age out loud, it sounds so hideous!).

PHOTO OF THE WEEK

This was taken a few days ago. My husband got sent home from work early, so we decided to do some fun stuff with the kids on their last day of summer. We took them out to eat, had some ice cream, and went to the park to play. It was a fun day! This is my oldest son.

Bleh.

Yeah, the title says it all. That is just how my weekend has been. Woke up yesterday in a super crabby bitchy mood right off the bat, only to find out later in the day that the old bitch aunt flo was behind it all! I think it's becoming more painful every month. Just take the crap out so I don't have to deal with it!!!!

The kids went to vocation bible school this week. I'm soo not a religious person or a church going person, but I grew up in a church, and my mom still goes to the same church. I have a lot of family that goes there and I figured the kids would enjoy it, and they did. Plus, it got them out of my hair for a few hours each day. The Pastor did tell us that she had to have a lil talk with our daughter because she was being a little.. hmm, too physical with the boys. Well, we witnessed her grab a boy's butt one day. I guess she was trying to hug a bunch of boys and she was being kind of rough with them about it and making them hug her, so the pastor had to have a talk with her! Oh gawd, what am I in for?? She's only 5! lol We've talked to her before about smacking people on the butt and grabbing people's butts, but she keeps doing it. She thinks it's funny or something. Great.

Yesterday, on my super-crabby-bitchy-cry-at-the-drop-of-a-hat-day my mom wanted to go see the movie Eat Pray Live. I love Julia Roberts. I have loved her ever since she was a little sluteroo in Pretty Woman! The movie was good; had a little bit of fighting back tears moments, but the movie itself is not something I would wanna bother buying when it comes out on DVD. Anyone who has been through a divorce should see it, though.

Came home from my date with my mama, then took the fam to a big balloon fest. It's a hot air balloon fest. We get there and it was kinda cloudy so made it nice and cool, Then BAM! the sun decided to come out and make me miserably sweaty hot for a few hours. I like taking the kids to things like this but by the time we leave, I'm always miserable and my feet hurt. We didn't get home until late last night, so I was gone most of the day and absolutely exhausted.

Had to get up this morning to go watch the kiddos perform at church with the rest of the vbs kids. While we were there, found out that a relative of mine was just diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's Disease and they are not giving her a very good prognosis. So yeah, she was there, just bawling and sobbing and bawling and sobbing. Just what I need on a day like this where everything is already making me cry! That poor family has already had so much heartache, it just doesn't seem right. Her and her husband have been married forever and he was crying, too. He will just be lost without her. She's my mom's age. They ended up having to take her to the hospital after church because her throat muscles tensed up and she was gasping for air. It is mostly affecting her throat and mouth. Sad,

I will be glad when this weekend is over. I've been fighting back crying all weekend long. Today, I've been feeling like I'm just here to please everyone else. Everyone else is always asking me to do this, help them with that. I'm not just talking about my kids. Other family members do it, too. My husband bitches if I don't spend time with him because we are usually so busy during the week, so on the weekends he complains if I don't spend all weekend with him. It's like, no one ever takes ME into consideration. No one asks me what I want to do with MY time? I like to scrapbook and do other stuff, but do I ever get to do it? NO!! It's like, my feelings are just unimportant. It's always about what everyone else wants and no one bothers to ask me what I want!! This is not the first time I've felt like this. It's like I'm just here to make everyone else happy and do what everyone else wants me to do. As much bullshit as I do, I think I deserve to be able to do something for ME once in awhile. Does anyone else feel this way sometimes??

Anyway, have another busy week ahead of us. Have two school orientations on Tuesday, then Thursday my oldest starts 1st grade, and my daughter has her Kindergarten assessment. Friday, my other twin has his kindergarten assessment. Then they start Kindergarten next Tuesday. Going to have to get into a whole new routine again. I hate this time of year.

PHOTO OF THE WEEK

I had lots of pics to choose from this week. I decided on another random photo. This is the floor of the driver side of my car. My husband has been driving it a lot lately, too because his truck is in the shop. I was waiting for him and my son yesterday when I looked down and saw all of these fucking Monster cans. I admit it, I'm addicted to energy drinks. Some days, I just NEED them!! I think this pic proved my addiction, lol. (don't mind the other trash, I never claimed to be perfect or a neat freak, so bite me.)

Another Week Gone Forever..

Where did this week go? I can't believe it's been almost a week already since my last post? WTF?? We ended up going out a little bit for our anniversary, well, it was the night before our anniversary, while his mom watched the kids last Saturday. I tried getting a hold of a few friends to see about just hanging out a bit, seeing as we normally don't get to just "hang out" with our friends any more. When we try to do it, we have our kids with us and they usually end up driving us crazy the entire time so it ends up not being so fun. Of course, everyone else had other plans so that was a no-go. We ended up going out to eat at Applebees (mmmm), then watched the movie "Grown Ups" (hilarious, btw), then picked up a few drinks to bring home and celebrate. I haven't drank in quite awhile, so it didn't take much to get me a little tipsy!!

Monday, my youngest son had a dentist appointment to get two teeth filled. Luckily, they used nitrous and he acted as if he didn't feel a thing! I wish my dentist appointments were that easy! I wouldn't mind going then. The dentist actually lives in Los Angeles, and is some well renowned children's dentist, but he comes back to Ohio a couple times a month to help out his hometown area. He told a story the entire time they were doing the procedure and told my son they were putting bright stars on his teeth when then put the filling in, lol. My son just agreed and smiled the entire time.. sucker!!

Monday night I started my new class. My school is trying to turn some of the classes into blended classes, meaning that two days are at the school and the third day is online, so I only have to go two days a week now! Yay!! Well, it may be just for this month because it's only for the gen. ed. classes and I'm almost done with all of those. The teacher hasn't been too bad yet. He's actually been kinda... funny? His asshat side hasn't shown through yet. I hope it stays hidden. I wrote my first paper on Endometriosis. I figured it would be a good way for me to learn more about it.

For the last week or so, my husband has been feeling really wore out, exhausted every day, and he has been getting up coughing a lot at night. I didn't think much of it, thought it was just bronchitis or something because we all get it quite easily. Well, Monday night he was up almost all night coughing until his throat was raw. He stayed home from work and went to the doctor. He had the start of pneumonia. The doctor said that since he doesn't have a spleen it could turn into something very serious if they didn't get it stopped. They got him started on a bunch of medication right away, he was off from work for 2 days feeling like he got run over by a truck, but today he went back to work and now, thankfully, he feels like he just has a head cold. They said he could have ended up in the hospital if it had gotten any worse. Usually, I just tell him to suck it up when he's sick because, well, we all know what big babies men are when they have the sniffles!! This time though, I actually told him to lay his ass down and get some rest! The doc said it wasn't contagious YET.. I'm gonna be way pissed off if I get it or one of the kids does. I won't have anyone here to help me if I get sick, I will still have to do everything. That's part of being a mommy, I guess.

PHOTO OF THE WEEK

A blurry pic of me the other day before school. This is my natural hair color, actually. I'm feeling the need to dye it again, I get bored with my hair way too easily!