Sunday, Bloody Sunday....

Blah, why do I always look forward to the weekend, but I always seem to be busier on the weekends than I am during the week? The weekends sure fly by these days, and Monday keeps rearing its ugly head all the time! It's Sunday night so here comes another week full of chaos!!

I'm getting kinda good at posting here every week now, huh? This past week has been alright, just the same bullshit as always: work work, mommy work, housework, school work.. do you see a pattern here?? *sigh* I used to be lazy as shit, but now I don't even have time to be lazy. I miss being lazy! I would like just 1 day, ONE! where I have nothing to do, and could just sit around in my pjs all day watching TV!! Yeah, that would be awesome, wouldn't it? .. At least until I woke up from the dream to three screaming kids. Reality sucks sometimes!!

My grandma is not doing well. She's been in an assisted living place for 6 1/2 years now, but over the last year she has really gone down hill. Her doctor decided it was time for her to go to the nursing home part of the facility. She's not happy.. at all. She told me that she has no say in her life anymore and that she wants to just jump out the window. OMG that shit makes me wanna cry to hear her say stuff like that. I really don't think it will be long now. I think she is finally giving up. Her last tiny bit of freedom will be gone as soon as she gets moved. We assumed that they would make her move soon, and we always said that if they made her move there she wouldn't last long. I know when she is gone it is going to be damned hard on me, but I know she is sick of living. She's in pain all of the time, has an infection in her leg, her eyesight is almost gone, she can't get up from the sitting position. She said once it took her 3 hours to get off of her couch! I guess after 97 years, you do get tired of living...

I have my Anatomy final this week, on Thursday. I'm not too worried about it just because I have an A in the class, so even if I fail the final, I will still pass, lol. This class is hella hard, but I'm learning a lot! Just wish I didn't have to deal with some of the dumbasses at the school, but dumbasses are everywhere; there's no escaping them. You can try, but dumbasses are always just around the corner.

The random pic of the week is of my kids fishin.. and it was taken this morning. We tried to go fishing, but it didn't go too smoothly. The kids were acting up (like always) and just kept screaming and yelling, even after we told them 234508145 times not to be so loud because they would scare the fish away! Then it started raining and thundering. So, we really didn't get much fishing done. I love going fishing, but I don't seem to be very good at it. Last year I caught like ONE tiny little fish. I had some bites today, but no takers. They don't like me. Maybe it's my pink and purple fishing pole? Or maybe it's my screaming little brats that scare them all away? Maybe I can use one of them for bait?? Ehh, probably wouldn't catch anything with them for bait, they fart too much and would scare the fish away. *sigh*



Oh, and I wanna just say that I'm sick of these stupid ass people that keep leaving comments on my blogs. It's not just this one, it's my other ones, too. It's a comment that will all be in japanese. This is not Japan! The entire blog is in English! If you can't leave a comment in English then don't bother! I will just delete it anyway!! The japense writing is usually a link, but I won't and don't click on it. Fuck you for wasting my time with your stupid ass japanese symbol thingies!

Hey, if you look over there on the side bar, there's a link to my facebook page, go ahead and add me, and just let me know that you added me from my blog so I don't deny you! TTFN! (ok, yes I DID Just read my kids a winnie the pooh book for their bed time, lol)

Pinky and the Brain!

Damn, I remember when I used to go out and have fun on the weekends, now I just spend the nights at home, blogging. LOL What happened to my life???? *bangs head*

I'm tryin to put more effort into this blog. I think I'm gonna let go of one of my other blogs. I'm just not interested in writing in it anymore and I don't want to force myself to post things just to keep it going when I don't give a shit. I'm just going to work more on promoting this one, along with my work at home blog, and my Rants in My Pants Blogs. These are the three that I am really enjoying writing for. So far, I don't think anyone even reads this blog? lol I've not even had one single comment yet? Am I THAT boring?? *sigh* I must be.

My new Anatomy and Physiology class is really kicking my ass lately. It's sooo much to take in and we have an exam or quiz every day. We have to go through an entire chapter a day. Our instructor told us the other day that what we do in one night is what other schools do in a week. So far I've been getting all A's in my classes and I'm worried this one will bring my g.p.a. down. Wow, I've turned into such a nerd in my old age! I didn't care about my grades when I was in high school, all I cared about was passing!! But, yeah, even though this class is difficult, it makes me feel smart.. and stuff. I also just enjoy getting out of the house and talking to other adults. I'm proud of myself though; I've made a lot of friends in school. In high school I was the quiet, shy girl who waited for people to talk to ME because I was too insecure to talk to anyone first. Now, I talk to everyone! Yay me!

Soo, I know females are a lot of drama. In fact, that's why I don't like a lot of females BECAUSE of the drama, but who woulda thought a 5 year old girl could bring and have so much drama?? My daughter drives me freakin' insane!! I wanted a daughter soo badly and was soo happy when I found out I was having a girl. What was I so happy for?? OMG the drama, the whining, the crying.. I can't handle it. Boys are so super easy, in my opinion. I mean, yeah, my boys are no angels, that's for sure, but they are tough little shits and they don't whine about every little f'n thing. My daughter, on the other hand, cries and whines all damned day long! How can one tiny little girl annoy me so much?? She is the center of her own universe, she only cares about herself and no one else. My God, what's it gonna be like in 10 years when she is 15??

I'm in a bit of a dilemma. I mentioned in another post awhile back about my ex best friend. We had a major falling out last year and haven't spoken to one another since. I'm not going into specifics of anything, but let's just say she took one little thing the wrong way, and it blew up into this huge stupid ass thing. Even when I explained to her what I was meaning, she basically called me a liar and said that I was just saying that so that she wouldn't be pissed, even though, she, out of all the fucking people in the world, should know that I would not have said anything like that about her husband. Sooo, it was a big huge thing, and we basically decided that we had just grown apart too much and well, after her saying a bunch of bullshit things about me and even putting me down because I worked at home, I basically told her to fuck off. Well, no, not basically, ... I DID tell her, "FUCK YOU". I felt hurt and upset. We had a falling out a few years before that and didn't talk for like 6 months. That time, we BOTH said some nasty things to one another. I admitted it, and she admitted it, and we both ended up apologizing. But this time, I tried to be an adult about the whole thing and felt like I did not say anything wrong to her until the F U part, which was after her acting like a 15 year old... So anyway, I knew her and her hubby had been having problems. She said they didn't get along at all anymore. Well, the other day, her husbands name was in the paper for being arrested for domestic violence. It didn't give any info., just his name and what he was arrested for. It shocked me really, even though I know some of his past, and I got really worried about her, I mean almost to the point of tears. Now I'm going back and forth in my head about whether or not I should email her and ask her if she is ok?? I mean just to let her know that I do still care and if she needs to talk, I'm here... but what if she doesn't want to hear from me? Or what if she's still a bitch to me? Should I just let it go and not worry about it? It's been in the back of my head ever since I read it the other day. Plus, I've heard some stories through the grapevine of what happened, but who knows if they are true, or not. I guess I didn't realize how much I still gave a shit until this happened... And you know what's really funny? One of the main things we were arguing about was because she doesn't like my husband, and she thought her husband was soo wonderful. Who the fuck cares if she likes my husband? She doesn't have to like my husband. Her and I were best friends since we were 12 fucking years old. Whether she likes my husband or not, it doesn't matter. Even though my husband and I have had our ups and downs, he has never been violent towards me, Hell, he has never even as much as called me a bitch, even when I was one. He treats me like a queen most of the time. Isn't that what matters? How he treats me?? Hmm, anyway, I soo rambled on this post. Felt good to vent a bit and get some cuss words out! If anyone actually reads this blog, leave me a comment and let me know ok?? I will return the favor if you have a blog, or website!

OH, I think every time I post, I'm gonna throw up a random pic. It may be of me, of my kids, of my pets, or of just any random crap I feel like posting! This one is going to be of me. You see, last weekend I tried to put some dye in my hair that was supposed to be blood red. So anyway, my hubby helped me with it and I was excited to see how it turned out. It turned out pink.. PINK! WTF? I'm soo not a pink kinda girl.. even though my layout has a lot of pink, haha. But here I am, pink hair and all.

My husband calls me "Pinky Brewster" lol.. What a silly goose.

Did the Easter bunny come to your house?

So, Last week I soo enjoyed my time off from school, but I think I need another break. I feel that I'm getting burned out on school, so I'm thinking about taking a month off over the summer to give my brain a rest?! I just started anatomy and physiology I, and as long as I pass it (from what I've heard, a lot of students don't), then I have A & P II next month, then Psychology which I'm so psyched about (pun intended!). So, I'm thinking the month after that which would be July? Wow, 3 months away, that seems so long!!

Anyway, I got a lot of crap done last week, lots of cleaning, and enjoying the beautiful weather. It is back to school for me this week, but my kids have this week off for Easter break. It's still been nice because they can play outside all day, and I don't have to run here and there to take them back and forth to school, which literally takes about an hour out of my day. That extra hour does really help, plus I get to sleep in! Woohoo! I *heart* sleep!!

My husband finally got a different job. The job market has been horrible here in Ohio, he has been looking for something different for months. The job he had was so shitty, the owners were just literally handed the business by a relative, and they had absolutely no clue how to run a business. They would tell the employees that they couldn't afford to give raises because business was slow, but yet every week they would go buy some new "toy" for themself like a f'n truck, or motorcyle. Then the owner's wife started coming in like she was queen fuckin' bee of the place, and she was screwin one of the other employees. They were bouncing pay roll checks, treating all of their employers like slaves. I'm glad he got out of there and could tell them to fuck off. I had to laugh though because the queen bitch decided to make a facebook page for the business. Almost everything on the page was spelled wrong. How do you expect anyone to take your business serious if you can't even spell? derrrrrrrr. Ugh, dumb people annoy me.

Easter was ok. Well, it started out ok. Did an easter egg hunt outside for the kids, then went to visit my grandmother, who just turned 97 years old. We left early because the in-laws were heading over to our house, but my mom stayed a little longer. She said when she was saying goodbye my grandma started crying and said, "i love you.. you have always been a good daughter".. almost as if she was saying goodbye for good. I mean, she's 97 years old, of course we know we can get a call any day... but I have sooo many memories of her. It's going to be very hard for me when she goes, she has always been a big part of my life. My birthday is Friday, and I just got this really strange worry in my head, like what if she goes on my birthday? Gah, I hate even thinking about it. ... Ok, so anyway, here's a pic of my lil rug rats on Easter morning. Don't let them fool you, though. My boys were pure devils for the rest of the day, especially the blonde kid! He kind of made the rest of my day miserable, but it's over now.



My husband's truck started messing up Monday night. He's been taking my car to work, since I don't need it to take the kids to school, until our mechanic had the time to fix it. Then today, at first the car wouldn't start at all. After 34087345 tries, it started, so he thought maybe it was the starter. Then on the way home, all of the sudden the speedometer thing just flew completely around in a circle and stopped working? WTF!? So, he had to take my car to the machanic to find out what is wrong with it! He had to bring his truck back home, even though it's not fixed and shouldn't be driven, but he has no other way to get to work tomorrow, and this is his first week there, so he can't miss. Soo, both vehicles decided to take a shit all at once. Seriously? Have I been THAT bad? WTF? At least the kids are out of school so I don't have to worry about how I would get them there without a vehicle. Thankfully, we have a great mechanic that my side of the family has been using for years. This guy has known me since I was a kid, so he works with us on making payments for the work, otherwise we would really be screwed without even getting kissed! He said he will have my car fixed tomorrow hopefully as soon as he gets a chance to find out what's wrong, THEN fix my hubbies truck. *sigh* I guess I can't complain TOO much. Things have been going pretty good for awhile; had to come to an end some time. Blah.

My husband goes to bed early now because he has to be up around 3:30 - 4am for work. That means I get some quiet ME time before bed now. I kinda like it, ok sometimes it's lonely, but I kinda like it, too. Gives me a little bit of blogging time. Yesss!! Now, if only I could get me some readers for this blog? Hmmmmm??