Christmas was here and gone all ready. It was a pretty good Holiday, I suppose. We had a funeral to go to two days before xmas. My husband's Aunt died from Cancer the day before his birthday (his bday is the 21st). There is soo much drama that goes on in that family, I'm glad my family isn't like that, at least! I hate drama and I like it when things are calm with everyone getting along! I'm also glad that I got to spend another Christmas was my 96 year old grandmother. I cherish every day that I get to spend with her because we never know when it might be the last!
I'm worried about my husband's job. The owner is going to end up losing his business. He obviously doesn't know how to handle money. I'm afraid the business is going to go under and we are going to be screwed! Ugh, I'm tired of always worrying about jobs and money! He wants go to back to college in the spring for Auto Mechanic but I dont know how we would do it with him working and me going to school, I dont know how he would be able to go because we don't have anyone to watch the kids! My mom never wants to watch them; there have even been times when he had to work over for his job, and we asked her to watch them while I went to school and she got all pissy about it! I assumed that she would be willing to help out more, especially with me going to school and trying to better myself.. but obviously not. She knows my husband can use all of the hours he can get at his job but when it comes down to asking her to watch the kids for us, she never wants to do it, and if she does, she always has something to bitch about. My mother in law lives an hour and a half away, and even when we lived closer, she never wanted to watch the kids. She will for a little bit but she gets tired of them very quickly. Soo, my husband and I basically never get to go do anything ourselves. We never get away from the kids together because no one ever really wants to help us out. I get stressed out enough and really need some time away with my husband. We have split up twice in the past, and we don't even have time to attempt to work on our marriage. We are just here, together, with the kids. I'm just mommy, not ME. Ugh, Ok, I'm venting now! I do feel better, though! I hope to be able to write in here again, SOON!
